I have been posting something called "The Face of the Day" semi-consistently for almost three years now. In brief summation, it is an Instagram self-portrait in which I make some face, and share it along with some commentary on when is a perfect time to make that face, as if I'm training them in how and when to change your facial expressions. It's become such an iconic part of my life, I've decided it deserved a blog post.
The Face of the Day was inspired outside a classroom as I was talking to Madison Moss. She was talking about something interesting, and to show I was involved and engaged in the conversation, I ended up making a ridiculous face at her that I had discovered earlier in the mirror and was very entertained by. She asked me why I made that particular face at her (I suppose it wasn't context appropriate), and I said, "I dunno, it just seems to be the face of the day." And the idea was born.
I posted my first Face of the Day on November 13, 2012. I had no idea how much I would learn from such a seemingly trivial post on Instagram. But my lifestyle has significantly changed from taking a Face of the Day for three years. In particular, there are 5 major lessons I have learned since I began this journey:
(1) A Habit Of "No Secrets"
I decided early on into posting The Face of the Day that I wasn't going to try to make my life look like anything it wasn't. I had recently listened to Elder Quentin L. Cook -- an Apostle of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints -- speak about the dangers of "digital masks" on the internet, so I tried to be very conscientious about not wearing one. My posts are generally happy and/or funny, because that's how I try to live...but when I am sad, my Face of the Day is sad. I was honest about when I was angry or discouraged or confused or underqualified or proud or nervous or excited. Employing this practice has been so empowering. Granted, there are plenty of things that don't need mentioned on social media just because they are very personal...but I love the power the internet has to free us from social pressures (if we use it correctly).
Do you realize what an effect it has on you when you allow yourself to show vulnerability to anyone who wants to see it? There are so many things in life that we might naturally want to cover up or try to forget or feel ashamed by or be embarrassed about. By being willing to be more open about shortcomings or weaknesses in a public forum, I have become so much more open and trusting of those I interact with in person. Once everyone online has seen a picture of me with tissue up my nose, how can I be sheepish or embarrassed when I a zit on my chin? There is something very liberating about knowing that people have already seen you at your worst...there become fewer and fewer reasons to keep secrets or be slow to friendship or even to be judgmental of others.
I admit, I was quite nervous the first time I tried to take a close-up selfie when I looked disgusting with allergies. It took me several tries the first time I tried to take a picture of my hair straight out of bed. I was worried about looking like I was trying to get attention the first time I took a personal snapshot of heartbreak. But as a result of those pictures, a dear friend brought me chicken noodle soup on a day I felt really crumby, I was given multiple opportunities to laugh about the woes of hair+pillow with other people, and I was able to reach out to other friends of mine whose hearts were hurting as well, and we were able to heal together, knowing that it's okay to hurt sometimes.
(2) People Crave Reliability
I was completely taken aback by how many times I've heard something akin to "My day hasn't officially started until I've seen The Face of the Day!" or "I rely on The Face of the Day to get the laugh I need in the morning!"
But what about when it happens every day?
Now we have something that makes a difference. Not because of anything astounding about the selfie, but because people can look forward to it every day. Reliable things, no matter how small, are becoming harder and harder to find in such a changing and liberal world. Don't get me wrong, I'm a huge advocate for change, and for unpredictability; I think everyone needs a good dose of it every day just to become more well-rounded, experienced, and wise. But there is a certain peace that settles in the heart when there's something you can rely on. Just think...even though it's silly, isn't there something really great about knowing that your grandma is always going to make Jell-O at the Thanksgiving dinner, or that your brother will stay up all night with you on Christmas Eve, or that your dog will lick your face every morning to wake you up, or that your best friend will text you a joke every day, or that your boss will inevitably say his well-known catch-phrase every time you work, or that you can buy your favorite taco at a discounted price every Tuesday? They're all small things, and some of them might even be annoying, but they are still something that you can rely on, laugh about, or discuss with a friend, because something reliable is relatable.
I have learned after consistently posting The Face of the Day that people crave reliability. I really think that people treat me differently because there's some random little thing about me that they can universally look forward to each day. After realizing this, I could have let the pressure get to me, and feel like I would be a major disappointment if I didn't post every single day. Especially the first day I forgot. But instead, I took the opportunity to let the "pressure" (I put it in quotes because people really did want me to post a picture every day, but in reality, no friendships would be lost and no lives would be ruined if I stopped) motivate me to do something consistently I otherwise wouldn't naturally do. As a result, I have been able to include a lot of other more important things to my daily routine, because I started with something easy, and built my confidence in being pretty consistent with something on a daily/weekly/monthly basis.
By doing something consistently over a long period of time, I have grown more confident in my ability to take on responsibility, and others have felt more comfortable asking me for help. All from a mostly-daily selfie!
(3) Actions Travel Further Than You Realize
Have you ever posted something on a social site that you thought was really clever or important, and only had around four people "like" it in some way? Most of us (I can't say all, because I know there are certain people out there who always and forever get 50 "likes" on every thing they post) have experienced this let down...it honestly shouldn't be a very big deal to us, but sometimes it is anyway. Something I learned very early on in this journey is this:
Do not measure success by human acknowledgment.
There have been days my Face of the Day has received a grand total of three "likes." But, on those same days, I've run into seven or eight people I hardly even interact with who comment on the face I had posted that morning. It's shocking every time. The longer I've gone, the more I have realized that there are waaaay more people who see and enjoy my Face of the Day post than I will ever actually find out about. My goal was to reach a lot of people with some fun little tidbit to relate to each day. On the surface, it looked like I was not reaching very many people. But I reach hundreds.
What's even more amazing -- and sometimes a little disconcerting -- is that there have been several times I have introduced myself to a total stranger, whether on the first day of class or while riding the bus or in line for a ride at an amusement park (yeah, this happened...), and they've responded with "Hey, aren't you the guy that does The Face of the Day?"
..... ..... .....WHAT?
I would use more words, but there aren't any. Apparently, complete strangers all over who-knows-where are seeing and even looking forward to each Face of the Day, and recognizing me as some sort of mini-celebrity when they meet me in person! This has happened several times, all because of a daily selfie.
Do you remember that time you were having a really terrible day, and that one person smiled and said "hi," and for some reason it just helped you take that breath you needed to calm down start moving forward? What about later that day, when you came home, and someone else was having a rough day...and when you could come in all gloomy and gone to your room, instead you were prepared by a simple smile earlier that day to notice, and sit down and cry about the bad day together, which is always very cathartic. How much did that one smile do?
Please recognize, if you have ever been kind, to any degree, there are still ripples out there that continue to grow and compound. Have faith in that. There is good in the world, and you're to blame for some of that.
(4) An Easily Accessible Journal Is Invaluable
About a year and a half after I started posting The Face of the Day, my friend Katie Henrie decided to put together a little birthday gift for me. She collected all of the Face of the Day posts I had shared up to that point, and made a little slideshow to a song by Owl City (my favorite band). At first, I didn't think I would get much out of it (after all, who had seen those posts more than I had?), even though I was grateful for the gift. But when I started watching it, I almost started crying. All of a sudden, put into this medium, this collage of pictures had become a compressed history of my life. I found myself laughing and groaning and rolling my eyes, and exhibiting all sorts of other reactions, as I watched that history. I was remembering other things that had happened on those days...I was recounting the experiences that prompted certain faces...I was even impressed by my own ability to move past perplexing or difficult circumstances by putting on a new smile every day. I was flooded with years of emotions and memories all within the space of about four minutes.
In the scriptures, the Lord promises us that after we have repented of our sins, that He -- the Lord -- "will remember them no more." I don't know about you, but I don't really think that the all-knowing God can really forget things... Instead, I think it is a promise. I believe God is giving His word that He will never choose to remember those moments ever again. For God, remembering is a choice.
For us, just naturally, remembering is not so much a choice. Sometimes, we just can't remember something. Other times, we remember something we wish we hadn't.
Journals, notebooks, scrapbooks, twitter feeds, facebook pages...these all give us different avenues to practice remembering on command. I had some really incredible experiences during the summer of 2013. I wrote many of them down. Now, any time I want, I can choose to remember those moments by opening my journal. I have learned more fully these past few years that taking the time to remember past experiences and the things I've thought were important throughout my life helps me to remain more holistic and open-minded.
There's also something about leafing through pages or scrolling through pictures that helps me to feel how substantial my life really has been up to this point. When I am in a place where my "life" is confined to all the biased and ethereal ideas floating around in my mysterious brain, it's easier for me to feel like I'm not quite grounded, or that I'm just making stuff up. Seeing it on paper or in type or on screen helps me to feel and touch and know that I have made an impact. My memories aren't just stories, and I'm not so lonely as I sometimes get to feeling. My comparatively short life thus far could fill encyclopedia-sized books with antics and travels and breakthroughs and relationships. That means something. I am something!
I have become very certain that when God can count on us to record what is happening in our lives, he will give us experiences worth writing about.
(5) There Is Something Noteworthy In Every Day
I think the most obvious (and most fun) lesson I have learned after hundreds of captured face-moments is that there is always something in every day that is worth talking about. Always. And sometimes, they are hard things. But those are important, too. There is something so thrilling and full of hope about the idea that every time I wake up, there will be something about that day that makes it different from my other days. Some event or idea will set this day apart from yesterday, and only build upon my preparation for tomorrow.
What makes the day even more exciting is that as I open up opportunity-eager eyes in the morning, I start a new day where I can go somewhere I've never gone, I can eat something I've never eaten, I can meet someone I've never talked to, I can learn something I've never studied, dance on the street, kiss a girl, surprise someone, do a good deed, figure out what I can build out of hangers, yell out to the sky, do my homework at lightning speed, try to develop a new way to meditate...every day has literally infinite possibilities. You know how, when you're in the middle of a beautiful snowfall in December, and you remember that every single snowflake is different and beautiful in it's own way? And you desperately wish that you could take a picture of every single snowflake so you could see all the beauty that is so small and melts so fast around you? Days are like that. Except you can take a picture of every one of those now. Keep every unique form of beauty forever.
The Takeaway
Life is so, so full. Why keep it a secret? Why lock up that little heart of yours and be so stingy with something as beautiful as a human life? As I have made a point to be more open with my desires, my emotions, my dreams, and my thoughts, I have made more deep, close friends than ever before. There's never anything to hide, no tongue to curb, no fear of betrayal...just love. And that has been an incredible blessing.
I dare you to find some really simple way become one of those reliable moments in other people's lives. Make up a new way to say hello, or give your roommate a Jolly Rancher every Monday, or post a really terrible pun on facebook every morning, or find a new signature dance move to bust out at every party, or text a friend every night at 11:11 and remind them to make a wish. It doesn't matter. Whatever it is, you will find that being reliable is a very satisfying feeling. It will build and build until pretty soon that "To-Do" list you're not getting to will suddenly always be done. People will flock to you and seek your company because you carry that safety and peace that comes from consistency. Actually, I double dare you. Double dog.
And don't underestimate the power of that, either. You do more every day to influence more people than you will ever know. So be bold enough to do that "little" thing that seemingly won't make a difference. It will ALWAYS make a difference. I promise. And then, write it down. Choose to remember. You'll be surprised at the substance your life contains.
Look every day for what makes that day different from the others. Every day presents new ideas, experiences, and relationships. Just that makes existing worth it. Not only worth it...but thrilling.